cupid, i dont like u much!!!

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

                                                             
 okay, the title may sound weird at first but trust me, i am a normal girl with no qualm whatsoever with love and associated feelings. infact, i would love to fall in love one day, like all other fellow human beings out there. but yeah, there is somethng in this relation that i do not like. what i don tlike is the initial phases of a thing, just when feelings ae kindling up, just when you are beginning to realise about your feelibgs for someone. call me weird, but thats how it is....
i hate having a crush on someone!!!! i do, i really do!!! okay, to have someone you think about often, which might give you incentive towards something might sound like just added advantages to the fact the your heart is warming up to someone and opening itself to new vistas of life, right? no!!i doesnt.not to  me anyway!. what i think of having crush on someone is that you become constantly aware of someone's presence or absence. what they or how they behave becomes so much more important than it is.you start evaluating their every action with much more detail, much more than you do yours!!!! everything you do, somehow tracks youback to the thought that how might that action of yours affect that person!! now comeon, how well have you done on your exam, tht could not, in whole wide world, affect your crush's feelings. but no, thought is a far fetched thing during that phase of life.
and dont even get me started on what happens when the person u have a crush is in the same room as you. besides the usual tripping, just cuz you were not apying attention to where you were going(do i need to elaborate what were you doing when u werent watching your step!!!), making a fool of yourself in front of an entire room full of people and ofcourse that one blessed read darn soul too, your walk is altered, you cant walk straight neither can keep a straight face even if you are trying your level best to ignore snide remarks or sniggers of your friends at your altered attitude and ofcourse previous tripping session. work at hand seems so less important once that person walks in and yet you try, maybe not frantically, but in subtle ways to work it out in such a way that your crush will notice you. pretty dumb, huh?? not to someone who's been smitten by the love bug!! constant teasing , constant poking, constant craning of neck to see where that one person is, constant loss of attention in your conversation cuz your ears are trying to pick up fragements of conversation going on in other part of room-this is all a part of package deal of CRUSH!!!

but more than all these things what i hate the most about having a crush on someone tht it ruins your chances of having an issueless friendship with someone. and if you, somehow, develop a crush for a friend, well, in some part of wrold that might be a happy scenario, but not in my nook of univrese. i think having feelings associated with a friend complicated matters more than you sign up for.. it does affect friendship somewhere. the pangs of jealousy when your friend mentions othre people, a constant joke of finding each other a corresponding girlfriend/boyfriend starts hurting you when it shouldnt. objectivity goes away from what you say to them and how they respond to your things!!
although crush in itself sounds bad to me, even worse situation is, yes there is a worst case scenario, is when you cant pluck enough courage to tell that person how much he/she means to you. you stand there, waiting for them to somehow seee things you cant bring yourself up to say, for watever reasons. and when they dont, all you are left with is a hurt heart, bruised dignity and a throbbing toe!!



and yet you cant help the stupid thing!! you cant help the warmth that comes to your face when you see that person, you cant suppress the smile when that one person throws back his/her head to laugh at a joke!!! you cant, you just cant help it at all!!!! see what a vicious circle it is!!!
no wonder i hate it!!!



P.S. all the above mentiopned conditions are a result of my case studies on specimens of species homo sapiens going through this condition at some point of time. any resemblance with any person, known or unknown, is purely coincidental. no section of this writing bears any connection to the author except the fact that she thought of all the wonderfull words in her own little head!!

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As the Mind Meanders said...

I feel for the men in your nook of the universe my crush-proof friend :)

Especially them that have a crush on thee... and find no reciprocation... and nothing to show for their hurt toes...

How those toes must hurt :-(

IcE MaiDeN said...

lollzzzzz!!!!!

This SOOOOO perfectly describes my current situation... wherein i have an IMPOSSIBLE crush on someone... lolz lolz!!! made me grin and think of him all throughout :P :D :)

Cheers,
Annie :)

HaRy!! said...

well yu explained everything and then finally the last couple of lines as its a thought yu have :)? hmm for a mo i thought yu went thru these and rambled outta agony! i agree with all the stuff... :)! tak care....ll wish yu not a crushy life :)! cya around... been to my blog lately?

HaRy

bliss said...

@as the mind meanders,
yea, those bloody toes still hurt like hell!! hope u get wat i mean!!


@annie,
awwww! m very happy about the part that its so easy for u to smile these days since thought of a person can, if nothing else, take u away from any tension. but i am also worried about the part about lotsa feelings which come along-constant doubts, anxiety etc etc.. i hope you wil tell the lucky guy how lucky he just got!!!

P.S. did you notice something different??? no more sms lingo!!!! i think i can graduate from annie's school of rectified english!!! wat say??? anytime soon?



@hary,
tell you honestly, yeah, i was a bit angry about this very thing. well, i could not have imagined all this stuff, right?? some of it (actually most of it) is my own experience!!! hate it, love it, cant ignore it, cna i!!! and no, m sorry. i havent been to this part of the world for some time now. had beenbusy. but thats first thing m gonna do wen i leave this page!!! take care!

blunt edges said...

hahaha...u pretty much summed up my entire school life...when the crushes kept on changing month after month...but i never changed...i just kept on making a fool of myself in front of each one of them! ;)
sigh! how i miss those times!

buckingfastard said...

yea sure...wid such elaborate analysis..its hard to believe all dis has no connection wid da author...

but yea i can relate to da feelin...kinda same thing happend wen i first saw Megan Fox :P damiit!!

bliss said...

@blunt edges,
ooooh that sounds bad!! how many were they?? missing anyone in particular?? ;) bet u got many hurt toes as well, huh??? yeah, there's a fun side to this whole thing but like i mentioned, there's a lot of other stuff too :(



@bf,
yeah, well, i cud be a genius but my own life's taught me more than ath else!! so yeah, u cud say some of it was me! although thankfully i never hurt a toe wen i tripped! i only injured my arms!! :P Megan Fox????? good thing she wasnt around to see u fall!!!

IcE MaiDeN said...

@Bliss,
lolz! the lucky guy has NO clue :P I'm his best friend... normal circumstances mein this is a perfect recipe for DISASTER, lekin its ok! Being one of his closest friends makes me insanely happy and thats ok for me :)

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Tuesday, September 22, 2009

cupid, i dont like u much!!!


                                                             
 okay, the title may sound weird at first but trust me, i am a normal girl with no qualm whatsoever with love and associated feelings. infact, i would love to fall in love one day, like all other fellow human beings out there. but yeah, there is somethng in this relation that i do not like. what i don tlike is the initial phases of a thing, just when feelings ae kindling up, just when you are beginning to realise about your feelibgs for someone. call me weird, but thats how it is....
i hate having a crush on someone!!!! i do, i really do!!! okay, to have someone you think about often, which might give you incentive towards something might sound like just added advantages to the fact the your heart is warming up to someone and opening itself to new vistas of life, right? no!!i doesnt.not to  me anyway!. what i think of having crush on someone is that you become constantly aware of someone's presence or absence. what they or how they behave becomes so much more important than it is.you start evaluating their every action with much more detail, much more than you do yours!!!! everything you do, somehow tracks youback to the thought that how might that action of yours affect that person!! now comeon, how well have you done on your exam, tht could not, in whole wide world, affect your crush's feelings. but no, thought is a far fetched thing during that phase of life.
and dont even get me started on what happens when the person u have a crush is in the same room as you. besides the usual tripping, just cuz you were not apying attention to where you were going(do i need to elaborate what were you doing when u werent watching your step!!!), making a fool of yourself in front of an entire room full of people and ofcourse that one blessed read darn soul too, your walk is altered, you cant walk straight neither can keep a straight face even if you are trying your level best to ignore snide remarks or sniggers of your friends at your altered attitude and ofcourse previous tripping session. work at hand seems so less important once that person walks in and yet you try, maybe not frantically, but in subtle ways to work it out in such a way that your crush will notice you. pretty dumb, huh?? not to someone who's been smitten by the love bug!! constant teasing , constant poking, constant craning of neck to see where that one person is, constant loss of attention in your conversation cuz your ears are trying to pick up fragements of conversation going on in other part of room-this is all a part of package deal of CRUSH!!!

but more than all these things what i hate the most about having a crush on someone tht it ruins your chances of having an issueless friendship with someone. and if you, somehow, develop a crush for a friend, well, in some part of wrold that might be a happy scenario, but not in my nook of univrese. i think having feelings associated with a friend complicated matters more than you sign up for.. it does affect friendship somewhere. the pangs of jealousy when your friend mentions othre people, a constant joke of finding each other a corresponding girlfriend/boyfriend starts hurting you when it shouldnt. objectivity goes away from what you say to them and how they respond to your things!!
although crush in itself sounds bad to me, even worse situation is, yes there is a worst case scenario, is when you cant pluck enough courage to tell that person how much he/she means to you. you stand there, waiting for them to somehow seee things you cant bring yourself up to say, for watever reasons. and when they dont, all you are left with is a hurt heart, bruised dignity and a throbbing toe!!



and yet you cant help the stupid thing!! you cant help the warmth that comes to your face when you see that person, you cant suppress the smile when that one person throws back his/her head to laugh at a joke!!! you cant, you just cant help it at all!!!! see what a vicious circle it is!!!
no wonder i hate it!!!



P.S. all the above mentiopned conditions are a result of my case studies on specimens of species homo sapiens going through this condition at some point of time. any resemblance with any person, known or unknown, is purely coincidental. no section of this writing bears any connection to the author except the fact that she thought of all the wonderfull words in her own little head!!

8 comments:

As the Mind Meanders said...

I feel for the men in your nook of the universe my crush-proof friend :)

Especially them that have a crush on thee... and find no reciprocation... and nothing to show for their hurt toes...

How those toes must hurt :-(

IcE MaiDeN said...

lollzzzzz!!!!!

This SOOOOO perfectly describes my current situation... wherein i have an IMPOSSIBLE crush on someone... lolz lolz!!! made me grin and think of him all throughout :P :D :)

Cheers,
Annie :)

HaRy!! said...

well yu explained everything and then finally the last couple of lines as its a thought yu have :)? hmm for a mo i thought yu went thru these and rambled outta agony! i agree with all the stuff... :)! tak care....ll wish yu not a crushy life :)! cya around... been to my blog lately?

HaRy

bliss said...

@as the mind meanders,
yea, those bloody toes still hurt like hell!! hope u get wat i mean!!


@annie,
awwww! m very happy about the part that its so easy for u to smile these days since thought of a person can, if nothing else, take u away from any tension. but i am also worried about the part about lotsa feelings which come along-constant doubts, anxiety etc etc.. i hope you wil tell the lucky guy how lucky he just got!!!

P.S. did you notice something different??? no more sms lingo!!!! i think i can graduate from annie's school of rectified english!!! wat say??? anytime soon?



@hary,
tell you honestly, yeah, i was a bit angry about this very thing. well, i could not have imagined all this stuff, right?? some of it (actually most of it) is my own experience!!! hate it, love it, cant ignore it, cna i!!! and no, m sorry. i havent been to this part of the world for some time now. had beenbusy. but thats first thing m gonna do wen i leave this page!!! take care!

blunt edges said...

hahaha...u pretty much summed up my entire school life...when the crushes kept on changing month after month...but i never changed...i just kept on making a fool of myself in front of each one of them! ;)
sigh! how i miss those times!

buckingfastard said...

yea sure...wid such elaborate analysis..its hard to believe all dis has no connection wid da author...

but yea i can relate to da feelin...kinda same thing happend wen i first saw Megan Fox :P damiit!!

bliss said...

@blunt edges,
ooooh that sounds bad!! how many were they?? missing anyone in particular?? ;) bet u got many hurt toes as well, huh??? yeah, there's a fun side to this whole thing but like i mentioned, there's a lot of other stuff too :(



@bf,
yeah, well, i cud be a genius but my own life's taught me more than ath else!! so yeah, u cud say some of it was me! although thankfully i never hurt a toe wen i tripped! i only injured my arms!! :P Megan Fox????? good thing she wasnt around to see u fall!!!

IcE MaiDeN said...

@Bliss,
lolz! the lucky guy has NO clue :P I'm his best friend... normal circumstances mein this is a perfect recipe for DISASTER, lekin its ok! Being one of his closest friends makes me insanely happy and thats ok for me :)

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