my first tag!!!

alright, now i can do this tag. cant tell you how glad i am to be able to do this. think i am over reacting, naah!! look from my side of world, it is a big deal!!!!
anyways, coming back to the tag, seven things no one knows about me. so here they go...

1. i do lot of self talking, and not mental talk. i mean a full dialogue, aloud sometimes, sometimes not. and this has earnt me quite some stares, weird looks, pointing and some sniggers too. but, cant help it. so ppl either back off or just laugh your way away! i dont give a damn!

2. i have only had chocolate as an ice cream flavour my entire life. believe it or not, but its true. never even tasted strawberry, vanilla covers dipped in choco sauce, black currant never! yes ofcourse, chocolate varies in types- choco chip, almond, nuts or plain. but that was implied, wasnt it!

3. i can never stay awake past eleven. and if i do, i get hungry around 11:30, without fail. no matter wen i had my dinner, last snack or anything. past eleven, i am bound to get hungry once!

4.i genuinely feel i do a great job at containing my temper. i wish my sis would believe it but she doesnt. trust me wen i say,if i said aloud all the things that went through my mind, i would be a lot less liked person. but since no one can know wat goes on between me and my prick of a conscience, no one would believe me! hmph!

5. i went up to my principal once and told him his latest found style of moustache doesnt suit him much. and believe it or not, he got rid of it the next day. i am telling this here cuz as much i would have liked to be known for such heroic act, i was lost as just a friendly student who had courage to tell her princi about his bad style. and that too went to my sir's credit for making his students so comfortable with him. no hard feelings, i just want the world to know that i am that heroic girl!!!

6. alright, this is good one. i was genuinely surprised to see myself in the mirror for the first time!! (as a little kid, ofcourse) now i am pretty used to the same face. but it had been quite a surprise for the first time. dont ask me how i remember wat it was like wen i saw myself for the first time in mirror, i wont tell that!!!!!! ;)

7.alright, i dont have a 7th point. but i have already blurted out too much. i don think you guys could take any more of secret unravelling s!!!

so people, now you know so much more!!!! cheer up, guys, this is a privilege and not everybody gets it!!!!!!

so now as per the rules, i have to tag 7 more people but i really cant think of 7 people. so as a cheat code, i am gonna ask just 4 ppl!
Bluntedges- i think he has a great sense of humour. i love his style of writing, conversational and casual. thats the kind i like to read.

Apparently intellectual- doesnt make sense to tag her cuz i do know a lot about her already. but this for sake of other readers!! (see my halo??? )

Hary- i really like the way he writes, his comments are genuine and well, among the first ones. and in my dictionary, that means a lot. so write away, hary! m waiting!

Multimenon- he writes well and it would be fun to know his secrets!!

i would have liked to tag Annie, but since she's already been tagged, she could skip this one from me!!!
so people, write away. let your friends know all your (atleast 7) of your deepest darkest secrets!!! so lucky ppl, here are the rules-

1) List 7 things about yourself that nobody know.

2) Pass on this award to 7 other people.

3) Comment on their blog and let them know that they are tagged.

(excuse the copy paste job!! :) jeez, i am in a good mood)

paths long lost

she was tapping the steering wheel. it was a nuisance of a habit, especially when she was anxious and no mater how much she tried to contain herself, the anxiety was too much to hold. it was a short drive and she didnt know if that bothered her more or made things better for her. jeez, it had been long. almost ten months. she hadnt seen him, not heard from him until the previous week and today, all of a sudden, she was gonna meet him. she had fantasised about this moment for ages and when finally that moment came, she had no clue if she was happy, worried, anxious, tensed or any other emotion cuz somehow whatever she was going through at that moment, she had never felt before.

she stopped at a signal. waiting impatiently, she got thinking about the day when she met him for the first time. that first time and she was smitten. initially it had felt like a simple urge to be someone's friend, then as to friend's teasings, it became a 'crush'. but she had no clue, when in all those years, that little spot of concern changed to love. she remembered the first time she realised she was in love. she had been scared. love had not felt anything like it shud have. no violins, no sunny days, no daisies and butterflies, no constant smile on hre face. nothing at all! if anything, love was constant trial for her, constant pain, constant effort. something was wrong somewhere obviously, but she never let her mind to much talking when it came to him. and her heart, well, it always got her into trouble.
even that day, when he got mad at her, left her, wished she had never come into his life while she prayed all day to be able to be a part of his life forever, even that day, all her heart did was cry for him, not because of him. yes, her heart always got her into trouble.
she wondered, if todays was gonna be similar. but turning all those thoughts aside, she felt today wont be the same. today everything was going to be different, today she would get to say all that she had wanted to say for five years. yes, five long years, she had kept this to herself, through his relationship and breakup with other people, all that time her heart had been yearning for him. but today, she was gonna tell him ho wmuch she loved him, she still loved him and always will. and even though over last couple of months she had convinced herself to the contrary, last week, his very name on phone brought back emotions like swarms of flies. yes, today was finally gonna be a happy moment.

cars behind her were honking like crazy. signal had turned green and people were beginning to wonder that the driver had fainted or something. she hurriedly moved on, mumbling apologies. outside the cafe, she checked herself in the mirror twice, cut off the engine and sat in car quietly. this was it. and yet it didnt feel like that. her heart was going crazy, er crazier. for one wild moment, she wanted to turn away and run. but her feet ditched her. love was too powerful. what was going through her mind, she had no clue. where was she going, she had no clue either. she wasnt aware of her surroundings, of anyone except that face she wanted to look at for so long now, that face which she was sure would smile to look at her. how could it now, he sounded genuinely excited to meet her, desperate, happy. apologetic for his behaviour, probably not. but she didnt want that either. being able to see him again was too much for her.
and finally she saw him. sitting at corner table, in that peach shirt, he looked just like he did ten months ago. it had been so long and yet didnt feel that way. this was crazy. this didnt make any sense. he looked up and a smile cracked on his face, she smiled back. her heart melted sooner than ice cream on a hot june day at sight of that smile. what followed was bizarre. one moment she was smiling, next mo, she wanted to cry. she was totally out of her mind. perhaps she hadnt brought her mind with her. made sense, it was heart;s job, mind was not needed!!! he stood up as she reached the table, with a warm handshake. unsure what to say. she didnt know what would take him aback less- 'i missed u like crazy, dont ever leave me again' or 'i love you like crazy, dont ever leave me again'. they both just looked at each other. alright, she couldnt contain it any longer. 'um, p....' before she could say his name, he stood up. she looke up to see.
before she could gather her senses, he said, 'you are late, as usual!!!! by the way, meet her. this is payal, my friend from school, best friend from school! and payal, meet her. she is rohini, my girlfriend. love of my life!'

she wasnt sure about next but somewhere a glass shattered....



P.S. extremely sorry for such a long post. if there are people who left midway, i understand. although you wont be able to see my apology either. good/bad attempt, i dunno. just wanted to write it. and since i have already written such a long post, i guess i don not really deserve to bore people with a tag that is my first one, thanks to our very dear Buckingfastard. maybe next time!!! :)

P.P.S. sorrry for equally long P.S.