one of those days...

one of those days,

when the truths hurt and smiles go sly, 

false comfort in lies unknown, 

a little sadness of times gone by, 

the world moves a little to the left, 

and then a little to the right, 

searching for its center

that just keeps slipping by 

one of those days, 

when hopelessness is the new high, 

the peace of giving up, 

the joy of a fizzling try, 

the gift of a failure, 

the bliss of oblivion, 

of the night sky 

the darkness that descends 

is just another friend

showing up uninvited, 

and promises to stand by 

one of those days, 

when little things count 

a kiss, a hug, an averted goodbye, 

sound of your breath, 

your silhouette against my sky, 

touch of your hand, 

your fingers running by, 

a smile in your eyes, 

little meanness in your try, 

one of those days, 

when this is all i need, 

when you are the drug to live by 

tale of every girl *sigh*

every girl needs her love story. thats the plain truth. no matter how hard they try to deny it, no matter what she looks like on the exterior, somewhere inside her is that little girl who has grown up thinking about a love story one day. blame it on the romantic love stories we have grown up watching. i remember feeling goosebumps when i saw raj fighting for simran on that station and i was five then! ever since then, there has been on thing or the other. and as if the movies werent enough, there are romantic novels that have love stories of ever lasting love. and you cant really blame me for that. there is a girl out there who finds a random bottle on beach and ends up with a guy who loves her crazily. sure, he dies eventually but she does spend some time being loved like sunshine! there is even one sending her letters from the dead! sure you can switch the tv off and shut down the book and dump it far end corner of your drawer and then, your friends walk in with their tales of being swooned by someone! what is a girl supposed to do then? there is nothing better and worse than a real life full on love story and someone like me who hears at least five of them daily in different stages, life is not that easy.
and just when i thought i was the only one left all alone in this big bad world, i realized something. now i know that at end of the day, in every girl lies that hope that someday she will find a guy who will love her for what she is. true? i dunno. i am still to find that out but i am just amazed at it. i had thought i had snubbed that little girl me into a little nook somewhere, never to emerge again. or maybe she had just left. but i realized she didnt. she was here, all the time. and so is she inside every woman out there. every girl is looking for her love story if she hasnt found one yet. no matter how, no matter where, the sense of being the one thought about, being cared and loved and most importantly being important is what every girl wishes for and certainly deserves. does every girl find it? i wish i could say yes. does any girl ever give up the hope? hell no!!! even the career oriented modern girls who dont want a man to support them do want a man to go on with them through life. the idea of a love story is different for every girl, for sure but it is there in every girl's heart.
so if you are a girl, thinking about your love story and at times frustrated with your undying hope of finding someone who will love and care for you like you mean everything to him then dont be. you are not the only one :)
and for those who have already found one, cheers!!!! 

quiditch!!

okay, i know the title says quiditch, so for all the HP fans who came here expecting something in that regard, my apologies. but since you are here, might as well go ahead....
well, anyone who has read or seen HP book/movie knows about Harry's passion for his game. but he'd also know of Ron's plight of having a super famous friend as best buddy. sometimes it was cuz Harry had a reason for being so famous, but at other times, it was plain, well, umm i dont know, hype perhaps.. alright, i am not here to disect HP series. my point is that i kinda understand wat Ron wud have felt like living constantly in shadow of a friend who was, alright, better than him, but at times, didnt deserve everything he got. especially when he was trying to make it in Quiditch(see, my title had some relation with the post!! )
well, my point here is that i know wats its like living with a famous friend.. i did it in school for four long years. and now, its again the same story.. maybe i have a knack for attracting really famous people [8)]. but it has its negatives too.. you have friends who u meet after ages and they might forget to ask u how r u doing, but they sure wont forget to ask 'so wats up with her???' God, if thats how interested u were in her, shud've made an effort to keep in touch. i was on verge of putting my status 'I shall not entertain any queries about another soul. kindly look for some other source!!'

however infuriated i might sound though, surprisingly thats not the thing bugging me right now. wats bugging me is the fact that most people around us are gripped by feeling of partiality. u have had it in favour of u, u have had it against u, u have done it yourself and u have hated it a gazillion times in ur life. yet, we face it everyday. and it especially hurts when it happens somewhere u are doing well, or atleast trying your best to do u rbest. and wen u see people still liking another person cuz they know them from before, they are friends with them or worst of all, they are prettier, it boils my blood!!! thats one thing i hate in life!!! i hate partial favouritist $#%&*@#! 

well, i guess, of all the things u cant change about life, this is one of them too!!! but if i cud have it my way, i wud tell all those people to get a life and look at things with wider perspective and get their issues straight!!!

umm..

gosh, its that crappy feeling again!! u r in a new place where u dunno wat to do and how to do it. not sure is it normal the way things are going!!!! shit man, its junior high all over again..

now, i know this virtual world is in ways better than the real one and yeah all the rest of the stuff too but wat i wonder is that is it normal for it to be kinda 'soona soona' initally cuz ppl, it sure is thoda 'soona soona' here!!! fingers crossed

hmmm, lets see...